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My thoughts on Cho

Yeah I know no one cares. But this is my blog and that's the point.

Well here's the thing. Firstly, I don't think NBC should have ran with that footage that quickly. They were the only ones who had it. They could have waited but in the need to be first they rushed it out. They could have made people aware of it and posted on the site but they broadcast it and I'm sure that was very upsetting for anyone personally linked to the massacre. I was definitely interested to see it and at some point I would have appreciated them making it available, but the phrase "too soon" is more than appropriate here. Onto the killer.

Well this kid basically Travis Bickled. You know, we're seeing news stories about disturbing creative writing and loner behavior and psychiatric missteps, but I think we're missing the point. He was extremely pissed. He was pissed off at the world. If he wasn't he would have just killed himself. He meant everything he did. He wasn't wired wrong. Okay maybe he was, but I don't personally believe in that stuff. I think that most mental problems come from conditioning. I'm sure that are some people whose brains are malformed from birth, but all this chemical imbalance bullshit has never flown with me. I do think chemical imbalances can be measured, no doubt. But I think the chemical imbalance comes because of the mental problems not the other way around. Bad things happen to you emotionally and it sets off certain chemicals and the more it happens then you become imbalanced.

So this kid wanted to kill these people. Mostly he seemed to have a problem with rich kids. I don't think he selected everyone he shot based on income but I think we get the gist of his rage. He resented the free pass that rich kids were getting. I don't know if he thought it was the just the university who favored them or the world at large but I'm guessing it's the latter. I do think I have some perspective on that anyway, because I did go to a major university and I was the poorest kid I knew. When I was scraping up change to see if I could afford a slice of pizza, the girls next door were hiring a maid to clean their dorm room. It's one thing if that's how far it goes but it's not. In college you begin to realize the advantage that the wealthy have. I was on scholarship and could barely afford my books. No money had been put aside for me to go to college but everyone expected me to go and I went. In fact I couldn't afford anything more than the basic texts, so if the teacher would give us supplemental materials to read I would have to go to the library to read it, sometimes waiting for someone else to be done with it. The kids who had money could just go buy it and read it in their room, in transit wherever. It made their academic life more convenient and easier. It doesn't seem like a big deal but it is.

I was in college in the early 90s this is just when computers were just beginning to become commonplace. Almost no one had one when I went in, but almost everyone had one when I graduated. Well of course I couldn't afford one, so if I needed to type a paper I had to do it in the computer lab again sometimes having to wait and during open hours, but mostly it was just
inconvenient. You don't have money for study guides, tutors, any of the extras that can make a college career that much easier. But what happens is that all these little inconveniences add up to an advantage for those with money. No to mention the fact that they started out in front of you. They're more likely to have better educated parents, therefore they grow up in a intellectually richer lifestyle. They know people because their parents knew people. And that turns out to be the most important advantage of all. So if you're sitting in your room trying to beat the odds studying and you're being disturbed by hard partying rich kids who are outstripping you academically you can begin to have issues. I don't know whether this counts or not but the kids that I saw doing all the partying, the kind that involved expensive party favors, were rich. Kids with little to no money can't afford to do drugs. If justice matters to you might hope that their bad behavior would come around and bite them on the butt. However, it doesn't.

Now at the time I didn't have a problem with this. I only realized the disadvantage I was at after I had graduated. And even still I would have never blamed the kids, I would have blamed the system.

So then the question becomes why take it out on the students and teachers? I don't know. Unless he thought they were doing something to him personally, I don't completely get it. But in my current life, I myself have problems with people around me who I believe are making my life miserable. And as a matter of fact I have quoted Travis Bickle recently. Walking in the rain, last week maybe, I said "Some day a real rain will come and wash all the scum off the streets." I'm not even really a Martin Scorsese fan but I'm sick of it. I'm sick of the idiots I have to deal with everyday. They are driving me mad. Now I don't own a gun and I don't want one. I've never sought revenge for anything in my life. I've never been in a physical fight. I can't imagine a scenario where I would ever harm another human being. But I know how to hate people now. I've been taught that over the past few years but the vast majority of the people I meet on a daily basis. I've seen how crude and disgusting your average person can be over and over again in a short amount of time. In my opinion people are not inherently good or nice. This is not even close to what I though 10 years ago. I was all Kumbaya and happiness even though my life wasn't that much better. In some situations, time doesn't heal all wounds. Sometimes it makes them worse. They fester. This kid was definitely festering. I try not to but when you live in a Groundhog Day type scenario, it's difficult. I liken my life to Chinese water torture sometimes, even though I'm not exactly sure what that is. Maybe he felt the same.

Back to the media. They are trying to get simple answers to people about a complex problem. Problems that were specific to Cho and that only he really knew. But they need to say something so they come up with their experts and their soundbytes and they try to simultaneous paint a picture of a monster and a victim of the failings of the system. And maybe that's the the whole thing right there. Someone who felt victimized by the world struck back at the world. But instead of saying something so simple, they'll drag this on for weeks to get ratings and advertising dollars. What I see if just an angry person who bought some guns and used them.

Mad World

Everything is out of control. I keep saying it, but it keeps increasingly becoming more and more true. The news about this shooting at Virginia Tech is still coming out so we can't really say anything. But God, those poor people and their families.

What's wrong with nappy-headed ho's?

When I was a kid I was kinda black. I remember people saying "nappy" all the time and it meant that someone had kinky hair that was afro-like or difficult to comb/brush. Ho's we all know and love. So now I'm really confused as to what is wrong with this expression? Wasn't there a group called the Nappy Roots? Were they racist against themselves?

Wherever it is you have to go to officially register as a racist, I think I'm going there ASAP. I want to be able to use more than 3 words to get a point across and if being a racist is what I'm going to have to do to have freedom of speech then I guess that's what I'm going to have to do.