I don't understand this. Can't process it. Just know that this is more reason for me to hate this world (this life). It's such a stupid thing.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Heath Ledger has died
This was one of my favorite pics of him and Jake. 
I don't understand this. Can't process it. Just know that this is more reason for me to hate this world (this life). It's such a stupid thing.
I don't understand this. Can't process it. Just know that this is more reason for me to hate this world (this life). It's such a stupid thing.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Still suffering from the noise
Those damn boom cars. I can't take it anymore. I had given up calling the police last year but trying to just sit there and take it was worse than dealing with the evil dispatchers. So around Thanksgiving I had a complete meltdown one Sunday morning and I went to the station to see if there was someone I could speak to. They gave me the number of the police captain and I had to wait a few days to speak to him. When I did I told him the whole story and he said for me to call every time. I can't do that. I've been trying and it's making this whole thing my job. I can't stand it anymore. How difficult is it to ticket someone? And somehow they can't do it. I get angrier and angrier everytime. I don't know if this is happening everywhere or what. I don't know if I can escape this or if it will follow me everywhere I try to run. I feel so hopeless. My hopelessness has been growing since last 4th of July when I had spent 6 months NOT calling the police about the boom cars and fireworks. I just want this all to stop. I want to go back to when people were decent and I know I can't do that. But I also can't deal with it. I wish I could just ignore it. I can't. This thing really attacks me. And as far as I'm concerned these people are attacking me. And I can't do anything about it.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Saturday, January 12, 2008
In the news (Januray 12th, 2008)
Twins unwittingly get married. I mean really. There has to been a fair share of ignoring hints. For instance, birthdays. Okay they may not have known who their birth parents were but did they not know that they had the same exact birthday? And there has to be some resemblance. I dunno. I think they must not have known that much about each other when they got married. That's stuff's important. I wouldn't marry someone unless I'd done a complete background check on them. Seriously.
Chris Bowman died. I loved this guy. I'm a figure skating fan, much more so back when he was competing. I had heard that he had some demons he had to deal with. It's a shame this happens. You know sports like that are so competitive and kind of unaccepting. I'm sure he would not have been welcome around the other skaters with the problems he had. That would have meant he wouldn't have been able to cash in on his talents quite like the rest of them. I guess that's fair but you know he was so great I just wish we got to see more of him and that things hadn't gone so badly. I'll miss him.
Nicole Ritchie had a girl. I hope she's really gotten her crap together. She's someone's mother now.
Chris Bowman died. I loved this guy. I'm a figure skating fan, much more so back when he was competing. I had heard that he had some demons he had to deal with. It's a shame this happens. You know sports like that are so competitive and kind of unaccepting. I'm sure he would not have been welcome around the other skaters with the problems he had. That would have meant he wouldn't have been able to cash in on his talents quite like the rest of them. I guess that's fair but you know he was so great I just wish we got to see more of him and that things hadn't gone so badly. I'll miss him.
Nicole Ritchie had a girl. I hope she's really gotten her crap together. She's someone's mother now.
Friday, January 11, 2008
Drugs are the devil
I'm not sure that I even believe in things like an actual devil. But what most people think of the devil as, that's what I think drugs are. On New Year's Eve I watched the "Intervention" marathon on A&E and I've watched the show off and on in the past. Right now I'm watching "Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew" and my god, what that shit has done to Jeff Conaway. When I was in junior high they used to make us watch this anti-drug movie called Dead is Dead. I grew up on Miami Vice. So I'm having a difficult time understanding why drugs are still there.
Everyone knows that they're bad right? I mean when I used to hear stories about rock stars who ODed back in the day I thought it was because people didn't know how bad that stuff was. But now we all know. And what gets me is sometimes educated brainy people think that we should legalize this stuff. I don't know what they are thinking. Supposedly they think the drug problem is about the violence surrounding it. Yeah, no kidding, that sucks. But this stuff is soul-destroying. It is like a bomb or a weapon that attacks the people who use it. No one would ever say that we should make lead paint legal for kids to chew on. This stuff is poison too. It shouldn't be a choice. These are the same people (most people) who don't seem to understand that alcohol is one of the worst things in this world. Think of everything that that shit does to people and it's commonly thought of as something fun. Still. After all the abused wives and children, cirrhosis, drunk driving deaths. Oh but it's just a party time beverage. Could you imagine if cocaine was that legal? Heroine? This world is spinning out of control so fast and people wonder why. They know about all the ills in the world like something as big as the drug issue and they still wonder why. What's wrong with people? Everyone should hate drugs period. Hate it in the morning. Hate it when you go to bed. Hate it. It's ruining the whole world.
And if you think I'm not talking about the pills that doctor gives you too, you're very wrong.
Everyone knows that they're bad right? I mean when I used to hear stories about rock stars who ODed back in the day I thought it was because people didn't know how bad that stuff was. But now we all know. And what gets me is sometimes educated brainy people think that we should legalize this stuff. I don't know what they are thinking. Supposedly they think the drug problem is about the violence surrounding it. Yeah, no kidding, that sucks. But this stuff is soul-destroying. It is like a bomb or a weapon that attacks the people who use it. No one would ever say that we should make lead paint legal for kids to chew on. This stuff is poison too. It shouldn't be a choice. These are the same people (most people) who don't seem to understand that alcohol is one of the worst things in this world. Think of everything that that shit does to people and it's commonly thought of as something fun. Still. After all the abused wives and children, cirrhosis, drunk driving deaths. Oh but it's just a party time beverage. Could you imagine if cocaine was that legal? Heroine? This world is spinning out of control so fast and people wonder why. They know about all the ills in the world like something as big as the drug issue and they still wonder why. What's wrong with people? Everyone should hate drugs period. Hate it in the morning. Hate it when you go to bed. Hate it. It's ruining the whole world.
And if you think I'm not talking about the pills that doctor gives you too, you're very wrong.
Britney Spears
Britney isn't doing too well. She's pretty much lost her kids because her behavior is such that people who decide these things don't want to endanger the children by leaving them with her. Problem is Britney is still a kid herself. Now I know she's 25or 26 or something. Normally I wouldn't say that about someone so old but she didn't go to normal school like the rest of us. She didn't have normal crossroads that we all come to. No freshman years, proms, college applications, bill paying. None of those steps on the way to becoming something resembling an adult.
Most of us whatever age don't know what we're doing sometimes but it seems with Britney that she really has no idea. I don't think this is her own doing entirely. I think she's lost.
Again I do not understand why she remains in Los Angeles. She obviously has no one around her who cares about her enough to take her out of there. I don't mean someone who will say "Hey, Britney let's go somewhere." No I mean someone who will take her away whether she wants to go or not. Now she's got some piece of shit photographer who is willing to take her to Mexico and that scares me. We all fear headlines but Mexico makes me extra nervous.
I do believe Britney has problems. But not all this crap of every yahoo on television calling her bipolar just because they've heard the term before. Something is wrong. Something got tangled up a long time ago and it's got to get sorted out. But I don't know if she has time. And the worst part is that right now she seems to be completely alone. She may be surrounded by people but I'm sure deep down she feels that no one is on her side. And sadly, I don't think there is any indication that she'd be wrong in thinking that.
So what do we do? We hope for her. We hope that she can get some rest. That somehow someone decent will cross her path and she will go with that person. If you pray, pray. If not send light.
Most of us whatever age don't know what we're doing sometimes but it seems with Britney that she really has no idea. I don't think this is her own doing entirely. I think she's lost.
Again I do not understand why she remains in Los Angeles. She obviously has no one around her who cares about her enough to take her out of there. I don't mean someone who will say "Hey, Britney let's go somewhere." No I mean someone who will take her away whether she wants to go or not. Now she's got some piece of shit photographer who is willing to take her to Mexico and that scares me. We all fear headlines but Mexico makes me extra nervous.
I do believe Britney has problems. But not all this crap of every yahoo on television calling her bipolar just because they've heard the term before. Something is wrong. Something got tangled up a long time ago and it's got to get sorted out. But I don't know if she has time. And the worst part is that right now she seems to be completely alone. She may be surrounded by people but I'm sure deep down she feels that no one is on her side. And sadly, I don't think there is any indication that she'd be wrong in thinking that.
So what do we do? We hope for her. We hope that she can get some rest. That somehow someone decent will cross her path and she will go with that person. If you pray, pray. If not send light.
The Writers Strike
I am a huge fan of films. I love awards season. This writer's strike has pissed me off to no end. I understand what they want and I don't care. Let me tell you why.
You and I can think of some writers by name. They wrote our favorite movies or a few of our favorite TV shows. This strike isn't about those guys. Those guys do something that not everyone can do. So when it comes time for them to get paid, it happens. They can negotiate. They can make demands because they're worth it. So in the years to come if those people are in contract negotiations they can ask for royalties from whatever they want and they'll probably get it.
The people this strike is about is those that don't have that power. Now that may make some people feel for them and think that all these stars striking for the little guy is a wonderful thing. But I don't feel bad for them. Because I probably don't watch their shows or movies. Because they probably suck. How often do we all complain about the lack of anything worthwhile to watch on television? We watch reality TV sometimes because it's the best thing on. Not because we're morons. On television the past few years I basically watch "LOST", "The Amazing Race", "South Park", "Dancing with the Stars", and beyond that it's mostly CNN or talk shows or something like that. That is not a lot of scripted television. I go to the movies all the time. But I wait for awards season mostly. That's when the worthy movies come out. My Netflix subscription is mostly about watching foreign films. Most of the American films I watch are written by the same guy who directed it. And he or she probably has a producer credit as well. So all those people are gonna get paid.
Now these people that the strike is about are ruining all kinds of stuff. They ruined late night for a long time there. (Jay and Conan seem to be doing fine without writers. And Dave's Top Ten List hasn't been funny since forever). They've ruined award season. They're ruining the economy of California. That guy who makes the knock off dresses from the awards show is probably going to have to sell his family.
Now you're thinking. 'Wait a minute, Rita, this is about the studio bosses. They're the ones being jerks.' Yeah I don't really know about that. Why should they pay for something they don't feel is worth it? They obviously feel the same way I do. If these people were giving them such quality stuff they would be paying for it. But this union business protects people who don't do that great of a job. It's true. You know it is. So I don't blame the studios for not backing down. Why should they if they could get other people to write scripts just as good as the ones they're already getting? They know there are a million talented people out there who just aren't in the union. People who haven't gotten a break. They know that they're better off not having a union at all. So why back down? If the writers get what they want it will be because the studios are tired of all the nonsense not because they think that these people are worth it. So what will that prove, that writers are important and valuable or just stubborn and self-centered?
You and I can think of some writers by name. They wrote our favorite movies or a few of our favorite TV shows. This strike isn't about those guys. Those guys do something that not everyone can do. So when it comes time for them to get paid, it happens. They can negotiate. They can make demands because they're worth it. So in the years to come if those people are in contract negotiations they can ask for royalties from whatever they want and they'll probably get it.
The people this strike is about is those that don't have that power. Now that may make some people feel for them and think that all these stars striking for the little guy is a wonderful thing. But I don't feel bad for them. Because I probably don't watch their shows or movies. Because they probably suck. How often do we all complain about the lack of anything worthwhile to watch on television? We watch reality TV sometimes because it's the best thing on. Not because we're morons. On television the past few years I basically watch "LOST", "The Amazing Race", "South Park", "Dancing with the Stars", and beyond that it's mostly CNN or talk shows or something like that. That is not a lot of scripted television. I go to the movies all the time. But I wait for awards season mostly. That's when the worthy movies come out. My Netflix subscription is mostly about watching foreign films. Most of the American films I watch are written by the same guy who directed it. And he or she probably has a producer credit as well. So all those people are gonna get paid.
Now these people that the strike is about are ruining all kinds of stuff. They ruined late night for a long time there. (Jay and Conan seem to be doing fine without writers. And Dave's Top Ten List hasn't been funny since forever). They've ruined award season. They're ruining the economy of California. That guy who makes the knock off dresses from the awards show is probably going to have to sell his family.
Now you're thinking. 'Wait a minute, Rita, this is about the studio bosses. They're the ones being jerks.' Yeah I don't really know about that. Why should they pay for something they don't feel is worth it? They obviously feel the same way I do. If these people were giving them such quality stuff they would be paying for it. But this union business protects people who don't do that great of a job. It's true. You know it is. So I don't blame the studios for not backing down. Why should they if they could get other people to write scripts just as good as the ones they're already getting? They know there are a million talented people out there who just aren't in the union. People who haven't gotten a break. They know that they're better off not having a union at all. So why back down? If the writers get what they want it will be because the studios are tired of all the nonsense not because they think that these people are worth it. So what will that prove, that writers are important and valuable or just stubborn and self-centered?
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