I want to die

I'm so fucking sick of it. All the bullshit and lies this world is made up of. I've always been excruciatingly alone, as long as I can remember. It doesn't matter if I'm surrounded my people I'm still alone. No one gives a shit about anyone else. Not family, not friends, not parents, not children. No one. It's all a big fat mean fucking joke. So why can't I just die then? I really honestly don't know. I think I live for revenge. Don't ask me what kind of revenge. I have no idea. I guess if the day ever came when the world did end and all the stuff in the back of the Bible happened and I killed myself the day before, I'd be pissed that I had missed the show. I know what you're thinking I'd be dead, how could I be pissed? But I'm pissed now just thinking about it. So there.